Food for thought…

November 5, 2009

Well I got the call yesterday that everyone dreads… the call from the doctor that says some blood work came back abnormal.  They want more tests… it seems I’ve been tested and tested and retested for the last few years.  So this isn’t something new, but I had actually thought everything was normal now.  So to hear that it wasn’t was quite a shock!!!

I’d like to be able to say my first reaction was of faith and peace in all circumstances….but that was the furthest from my reaction.  I’m embarrassed to admit that this daughter of the Great and Powerful God panicked – thinking the worse of course.

After a good night of sleep I’ve come to my senses.  I know that the days ahead will have tests.  Then I will wait for what feels like forever to hear the results, but there is absolutely nothing I can do to change the outcome.  I know that no amount of worry or stress will help anything.  So at this point I must rest in the peace that surpasses all understanding that comes from God and God alone!!!  And that is what has filled my heart today!!!

However, I have to share a thought I had today while driving to one of these tests…. as I said yesterday I thought the worst – and for those of you who don’t know I have a pretty creative imagination… so I thought “What if I was told I didn’t have long to live?”  Would I live today like I have?  Would change my life in any way?  Would I live differently?

I can honestly say that other than spending as much time as possible with loved ones – I’d live my life just as I am!!! Sure I would want to travel and see some things I haven’t seen in this beautiful world.  But honestly I love what I do – I love teaching and working with the wonderful people I work with!!! I love my students and would desire to impact their life just as I pray I do on a daily basis!!!!  I have full confidence that I am right where God wants me to be and I strive daily to do what he calls me to do in that day!!!

So I’m sure I’ll go do these tests and I’m hopeful the doctors will figure out what’s going on.  I’m confident it’s something that can be treated or lived with.  But at the end of this experience I’ll hopefully grown a bit more…it’s the testing of faith described in James Chapter 1:2 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

So my friends, if today you find yourself facing a trial consider it pure joy.  Know that this will help develop your faith and produce perseverance.  I know that God is faithful to complete what he has started!!! Know that He loves you and I more than we can comprehend and he is faithful to us!!!


4 Responses to “Food for thought…”

  1. Rachel said

    I love you & I’ll be praying for you for COMPLETE healing!!

  2. Niki said

    Thanks Rachel!!! So I may not blog often but it’s good when I do. Quality not quanity – LOL

  3. I love you babe!

    You are an incredible woman and truly an example to all of how life must be lived dependent on God and His mercy and Grace.

    It is a joy to call you my wife. I am so abundantly blessed to have you in my life.

    I love you and know God has you and this situation firmly in hand. He is in control and only good will come from this.


  4. Devon Wince said

    Thank you for your inspiring words. Your faith is so truly beautiful and you are an amazing friend. You are absolutely right that God will take care of you and continue to prepare you for the days ahead. You have no idea how much I needed to read the scripture you cited above for a situation that I am currently dealing with. At the end of the day, a person’s faith will be tested and they will be stronger for remaining true to God and not allowing the enemy to influence his/her lives. The enemy is always ready to pounce with fear, doubt and confusion. Children of God shall remain true to his/her beliefs and know that no matter what we can’t change what we can’t change and we need to let go of things that we can’t control. Thank you friend for this passage written today.

    Love you bunches,

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